TIME

Funny tho, I have more time to spare this month. And it's been really good. Not entirely because I have to be creative every night. Maybe God gave me more of this time to reflect and take life easy. I am not rushing anymore. I am embracing time now than almost a year ago. Maybe it's also His will that a lot of things happened this month giving me what I dislike the most -- TIME.

I have a love-hate relationship with time. If you're one of my avid readers from way back, you will remember that I always complain about time. I said sometimes, I don't remember how I got to a place and how much I want to stop it. But the thing is, you cannot stop it. It's a painful truth. And also, it's really good to make out of the little time you have left in your remaining 5.5 hours after work (assuming you'll sleep around 11:30PM) can you just imagine how tiring it was for me? Counting hours and chasing after it. Ugh. I still count. But I am embracing it now. And boy it's true that 5.5 hours is still a loooot of time. You know why? Because I allowed more of this for myself. For someone who's time-conscious freak, this is something that I didnt realize for the past 32 years. I also forgot about myself, I realized I was chasing the time for the wrong reasons.

ON ACCIDENT

I experienced my first and (I'm claiming it) my last vehicular accident last March. A taxi hit the side mirror of my motorbike and I fell on the pavement hard. I was so scared. I can't explain the feeling but it felt like God dropped me just like that. What if it was a truck. What if that was a jeep? What if napailalim ako? I could've died. I was scared. My mind was rushing I don't know what to do. I was shaking. I wanted to cry that morning. I was helpless. I was hurt. I sleep with lights on because whenever I close my eyes, I see the accident. Sounds OA ba? It's the truth. Totoo pala ang ganun at hindi lang sa movies. After a week, I regained my confidence. Thank God. I failed to recognize that the accident was a blessing and God still protected me from death. I didn't see it at first kasi napangunahan ako ng takot. I have so little faith that time.

ON TRAVEL

I was able to retrieve my Blogger password last week after soooo many painful tries. I can't remember how but finally, I was able to get it. So, it's been 2 years since my last serious update. I went to Tokyo last month. I seriously want to blog about the nitty gritty of that painful itinerary but it was soooo tedious and I am kind of lazy to that now. It was a tiring trip. We went to Tokyo Disney Sea. Got lost. Got tired. Had an emotional breakdown because I was waiting for someone to open the AirBNB apartment for me. I was waiting outside the house for about 3+ hours. Enduring the 10° cold, wind (typhoon-like) and hunger. Let's add the fact that there was a lady who shooed me away because she cannot understand English. It was heartbreaking. She locked her door like I was a beggar. It was intense. I wanted to cry. IT. WAS. INTENSE. Unforgettable. I wouldn't want to be the "guide" next time. It was fun but not fun. On a good note, another thing crossed off the bucket list!

We booked a flight to Singapore this year and we're going to Legoland Malaysia and Universal Studios! It was a spur of the moment decision. Is it? I think we were both impulsive on this but it's okay. (I am thinking now to add check-in baggage, haha! Kasi I thought about the chocolate mascot in Universal Studios. Medyo weird ako sa part na yun.)

AAAAND ANOTHER IMPULSIVE DECISION

Yup. I have another one of this. But it's on me. I pursued my long-time dream of becoming an Interior Designer. Char! Well. Sort of. I mean, God opened an opportunity. It was there! The schedule is pretty much for me and without blinking an eye, I did it. I enrolled. I hope it's going to be okay. Actually, I know it's going to be okay. God wouldn't present this opportunity if this isn't for me.

ON UNDERSTANDING THE UNEXPLAINABLE

Haha! When I was in college, me and Cielo went to a Christian Church in front of the school because we want to spend our long breaks playing board games. We were drawn into it! We went inside and a couple of people welcomed us, asked us to sit down and talked to us like we were drug pushers wanting to turn our lives around and seek God. They started praying with palms above our heads. And I said, I am never going to enter this establishment again. Super awkward. I attended Victory Church about four weeks ago. It was good! No one welcomed me to start asking for personal stuff and no pray-overs! It was a breathe of fresh air! No offense to the Catholic Church but Christian Churches are more engaging and they can explain things the way I wanted to understand it. My first thought after the service was: "why didn't I attend before?" And many more whys after that. :-)

One more thing. I realized I was reading the hard version of the bible that's why I cannot understand it! I switched to NIV. It's all good now.

CLOSING

I think I need to change my mattress. Ang sakit sa likod super. I just finished coding. Since when it become a headache?