MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I made this today. Santa looks like a penguin/Ninja here.. Sorry Santa!

ON BEING A FINALIST AT PHILIPPINE BLOG AWARD'S BEST BLOG DESIGN

I am honored. For the first time in my life, I felt proud (and teary-eyed) that I saw my blog name in line with the people I look up to. I am lost for words. I still can't believe it. Haha! I wasn't expecting. In fact, I forgot about it and I only learned about me, being a finalist yesterday by accident.

Chyng Reyes commented on two of my blog posts. Tipong "paano sya nakarating sa blog ko? Si Chyng Reyes yun." And then I checked my stats and saw my referring link: The Philippine Blog Awards. Nagtaka lang ako. I searched for my URL there and I saw Creativitee Lab. I opened my mail to confirm and I saw this message na ikina-shock ko.

CHRISTMAS WISHLIST

COMPANY ID

I can't decide which picture to use. Can you guys help me decide? :P

LOVE

Being in love is mostly about hormones, but it often feels magically as though you're in heaven. It's wondrous. Then there is love based on true compatibility, deep liking and ongoing physical attraction. It isn't as giddy or euphoric and won't always feel like heaven, but actually it's about the nearest we get to Heaven on this Earth.

Love as though you've never been, or will be, hurt. It feels so different that you may be amazed to realize how guarded you've been up until this point. It's a natural reaction to think "If I don't let myself love I can't be hurt." In actual fact, preventing yourself from loving as fully as possible only hurts yourself.

We all need to love. It's quite true that there are no guarantees when it comes to love and you might get hurt, but you'll heal, too. So take the risk of loving. It's a part of being alive and part of your personal happiness.

I love you.. Weh? Hahahaha!

One word to describe me today: MALANDI!

SEPTEMBER 2011 HIGHLIGHTS

I used to forget the smallest details in my life. But I am not getting older, diba? Or am I? So, to avoid that getting-a-little-older-everyday drama, I thought of posting monthly report where I would enumerate the highlights of that particular month, or the things that I remember. Given the fact that I am forgetful, I am using this excuse to post monthly because I am losing all my desires to write already. Why? Because I am in love. Hahaha! But no, kidding aside, here are my highlights:

LAUGHING CHINESE AT YAKIMIX

Here lies the rawest of all the raw. I don't eat Japanese food. But out of the usual take-me-anywhere-I am-yours attitude, I went to Ortigas bearing in mind that I will stuff my mouth with cold and slimy Japanese goods, (unaware that I can actually cook it in front of me!) Heavens.. Hahaha!

Raw, raw, raw the shrimps, walking down the streets.

I am writing not about the food pala. But I laughed so hard that night, that I forgot we went there to eat. Yakimix!! After so many weeks of not laughing in the daylight, it's as if the first time in years that I finally broke into laughter. Whuuuut?! Whutuwuuuut!

MOONCAKE FESTIVAL + 1ST MONTH AT ENJOY PHILIPPINES

I celebrated my first Mooncake Festival at TGI Fridays in Glorietta. It was fun. And it marks my first month with Enjoy Philippines. Beautiful faces. Gwapong boss. I will always start my day with a smile. We played dice, we all won hundreds of points. I took home 6 packs of Chuckie, Snickers, Pepsi and Mountain Dew (2 liters each), and among others.

Shocks, ang gwapo ni Sir Alf.. Mas gwapo sya like, today! Kasi ala-Chuck Norris ang drama ng beard nya! Hunk!

I ate like a pig that night. Dyahe! I was so hungry because we went back to the office to get the 15 bags of prizes with Tim, Reymer and Jessica. I ate full rack Baby Back Ribs, I know right?


MEET THE NEW LETTER K!

I've been wanting a little girl in the house. Last year, my first niece passed away right after she was born. I mentioned it in my Sagada entry. But God has better plans. Pinaexcite muna nya kami. Baka pinag-mature muna ako ng konti. Kasi I know, of course my first niece would be one year old by now. Baka kasi kagatin ko na lang sya bigla pag natuwa ako. My cousin from US even congratulated me for having a new victim (aside from Ken) na kukulitin! Patay ka sa akin Kendra!

My Brother, Ate Kaye, Kendra and Ken

Maybe just like her brother, we'll visit toy stores together. Make lambing and landi over pink dresses and clips. I am sooo excited! And if she gets fat.. Oh dear. :) I am just happy for having these two cute little creatures at home.


MILKSHAKE IN BORACAY


It was indeed the tastiest, creamiest and probably the milkiest milk shake I've ever tasted! Only in Boracay! It was also my first time in Boracay! Thanks to Joice for inviting me to tag along with her and her friends. 

Left: Papaya Milkshake and Carbonara, Right: Jasper, Me and Joice at Jonah's in Boracay

Funny though, I don't have much stories to tell from my Boracay trip. Super relaxed kasi ako that time. I slept, I ate, I slept lang ata during our stay talaga. I love Boracay!

I LOVE YOU, I HATE YOU

You're the only one who can see this post. Kaya alam mo na na ikaw ang tinutukoy ko.
I am making this list to write the things I hate about you.

1. I hate your thoughtfulness - You make me feel special. You always make me believe in love. I do. But with you, it's a different story.
2. I super hate your sweetness - This thing is making me fall for you real deep. It's a good thing we don't see each other often. 
3. I hate the way you make me laugh - Effortlessly. Nuff said.
4. I hate your presence - I hate it when I find my self smiling even when you're just sitting beside me.
5. I hate your vulnerability
6. I hate it when I can see you're uncomfortable and tired. I wanna take all of it away, but I can't. I don't know how.
7. I hate the way you come into my mind in the middle of the night. When I think about you, para akong nasa bar. Gumugulo ang tahimik kong mundo.
8. The way you talk - I hate the way you talk to me. It makes me want to listen even to your silent sighs.
9. I hate it when I am hoping to receive a text message from you almost everyday.

But even if my falling in love with you just means listening to your funny stories, watching your hand gestures, watching you have fun, then I'd be happy to just watch you get close to the things you desire the most. I would hate the things that make you stand out above the rest and secretly fall in love over and over again. Because with you, it's different. Because with you, I am happy. Because with you, I am selfless. Because with you, every broken pieces of my self is whole. Because I love you - unselfishly.

YAKIMIX AT THE PODIUM

Two of my favorite girls in the world, Aica and Tina.. :)
Photo by Allan David; Camera from Joice Pineda.. :)

I was never a fan of Japanese food. In fact, my younger sister was encouraging me to try some but I never want to stuff my mouth with raw shrimps and meat. Kumakain lang ako ng luto, heavens! I said yes to Aica last Friday, September 9 para maiba naman ang trip ko sa food. True enough, I was satisfied naman with raw crab sticks or whatever it is. But it doesn't change my taste about the Japanese food. I neither like nor dislike it.

TEAM MANILLERGIC

I am thinking of creating vector characters for my friends. In this case, the Team Manillergic. They've given me enough reasons to ride a bus and spend long hours of it asleep, unconsciously waiting for a new place to breed -- I mean, see.. :)

These guys are awesome! Ang tagal ko din kayang naghanap ng travel friends. I can't wait to finish their avatars!

Me and Aica Lenon.. :)

What I am doing is still a work in progress.. I am not good with shadowing yet. I have the perfect excuse of doing this by practicing it with my friends. Haha!

BINAGYO SA BAGUIO

Nina Typhoon. Landslide and long weekend. Baguio. My sanctuary.
Feeling ko kasi noong past life ko, I was an Igorot. Siguro kaya kating kati ako to go back in Baguio.
Kailangang magkwento, para maiba.

Allan and Me at Bencab Museum's Graffiti Wall.
Photo by Tina Bacud

Everytime na pumupunta ako ng Baguio, laging new experience. At laging umuulan. I have to say thanks to my friends who are more than willing to roll and get dirty. No itinerary for this trip. No plans. No nothing. Ang saya lang because when you don't have plans, it's where you get your most unforgettable experiences lalo when you feel that the air is filling out your lungs because you are physically tired. I got sick. Terrible cough. I think I passed the virus to Tina kasi hindi kami nangangalamansi unlike Allan. Haha! And I will never trade these kind of moments over money. Shet.

CANYON COVE BEACH CLUB OFFER FROM ENJOY PHILIPPINES

Enjoy the best of Canyon Cove Beach Club with this new offer from Enjoy Philippines October 2011-2012 edition! Oh heavens.. I can't wait to spend my precious lazy time in here. Like, yeah. I can see it coming. I can imagine now the comfort my hotel bed's gonna give me when I slump my body on it.

I will get myself wasted with Tequilla and dance under the moonlight. Wasted talaga? Pakshet. I never gotten myself drunk, that I need to crawl out of a bar or whatever. It sounds real fun! And then, I will watch the stars make out!

ANG POST NA WALANG KWENTA

Had I been impulsive and stubborn, I don't have an idea. I just need to get out again. I am missing my dear friends terribly. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Gusto kong itaktak ang laptop, hindi ko alam kung anong hinahanap ko. Gusto kong lumabas. Ayokong matulog. Bakit hindi ko binigyan ang sarili ko ng oras para magisip? Bakit ako nagisip, kung magiging ganito naman pala ako?

Gusto kong tumayo, gusto kong humiga. Gusto kong buksan ang refrigerator at kumuha ng yelo. O maghanap ng Chuckie sa container. Gusto kong inumin ang Carlo Rossi. Gusto kong magtequilla. Gusto kong umalis. Maglaba kaya ako? Parang pagod na ako. Ano ang gagawin ko? Gusto kong magpost ng matino. Gusto kong magkwento tungkol sa bagong work pero hindi ko alam kung saan maguumpisa. Gusto kong mag Facebook pero ayoko na. Parang gusto ko na lang ilog-out.

Nako-confuse ako. Gusto ko bang magsound trip? O magmovie marathon? Gusto kong magdrawing. Gusto kong magblog. Gusto kong masaing sa ganitong oras. Tumingin sa kawalan, tumulala. Mainlove. I am inlove. Wag yan, lalandi na naman ako sa moment ko. Tsaka na ako haharot.

Gusto kong magenglish. Gusto kong magkapampangan. Gusto ko ng hotdog. Gusto kong magSogo. Gusto kong ayusin ang blog ko. Ano na? Ano na nga ba?

INLOVE

Once upon a time, there was a girl who fell in love. She resigned. And then, the rest is history.

THE END.

THANK YOU, MEGA FISHING CORPORATION FAMILY!

I will never say goodbye..

I will forever be grateful that I shared seven months of my life with them. I found true friends kahit sobrang binabasag nila ako sa araw araw na ginawa ng Diyos.

I joined them December of 2010. Hindi ko din inexpect na second day ko pa lang with them, hindi ko na kailangang mahiya around them, I don't have to adjust. Ganun kasimple. I started 2011 literally happy because they were all very supportive and warm towards me.

I would like to give my warmest thanks to these people:

CREATIVE DEPARTMENT / MARKETING DEPARTMENT
Regi Santos - He's my college friend and my Creative Head. Thank you for introducing Mega Fishing Corporation to me. He is the nicest guy around and I trust him more than anything else. Thank you for giving me bear hugs all the time. It is really cute when you say "pa-hug nga" and feel your big arms around me. Pag iniwan ka ni Beth, nandito ako. Pipilitin kitang mahalin. Mahalay!

Toti Bernardo - My co-designer. Magaling gumawa ng lubid ng kasinungalingan. Katandem ni Arman. He's quiet and funny at the same time. I like being around him because he always say the wrong words at the right time. Thank you for introducing a lot of things to me and for being extremely patient. Kala ko mabait ka, hayup ka! :D

Amber Fajardo - Amber the Giant: Ang pinakamatanda sa circle of friends pero isip bata! Jokeness! Seatmate in Navotas and a loving friend and daughter. Thank you for being my sister in MFC I am so lucky na nakadaupang palad kita kahit lagi mong hinahawakan ang pwet ko at ang booby ko. Wag kang masyadong praning kasi nakakamatay yun. Pag nagyaya akong lumabas sana wag kang drawing!

I AM IN BIG TROUBLE

I am writing this story to remind myself how stubborn I was for the last five months. I was confused and anxious. I was numb and unhappy. I am lost for three minutes, trying to gather all the possible words to describe how I really feel.

I froze there, ashamed of what my eyes just witnessed. Pinakita sa akin ng Diyos kung gaano ako ka-impulsive at kung gaano ako naging pabaya. Ang sakit pala nun. Ayoko ng maramdaman ulit yun. First time ko to experience this, so everything's new to me.

The only way to describe how I feel is similar to those girls facing an unwanted pregnancy. Bigat no? Yeah. I am in a mess. Ok lang to! Babawi ako.

HALO

Halo Soldier I made last year

KOBE BRYANT WEARS FEU JERSEY

I am sorry for the badly edited pictures.. :)

Basketball superstar Kobe Bryant wears FEU jersey! :D

I am a biggest fan of Los Angeles, Lakers. Nuff said! And when I saw these images of Kobe, I have to say I felt the school pride rising! Saka lagi ko syang pinapagod pag naglalaro ako ng NBA Live.

6 foot + tall Bryant visited Manila to kick off his 5-city Nike tour. He played hoops with Far Eastern University (FEU), Ateneo de Manila University (ADMU), De La Salle University (DLSU) and Smart-Gilas Pilipinas players yesterday, July 13, 2011 at Araneta Coliseum.

Those people who were given a chance to see this guy in person is hella lucky! I wish to see him too. I heard that Kobe might watch FEU Saturday game in Araneta. I am not sure about this though. I might as well go there and see for myself. :)

It looks good on him. Same color kasi ng jersey nya. :) I love you Kobe Bryant!

PATAPON WARRIOR

My own version of Patapon Army.. 2/20

MY AVATAR

Created my avatar. 1/20

PAHIYAS, QUEZON

Not-so-Hagardo Versoza pose

I will always remember Tina's creed that says "take me anywhere, I am yours!" even if we knew na maglalaway ang mga kili-kili namin sa init at ikasusunog ng balat namin.

To be continued...

WANNA DRAW!

What a cute art!

I was browsing random blogs when I saw Sho'nuff Love's vector arts. Colors are really pleasing and attractive. My greatest frustration IS to draw perfect figures in which, I can't seem to accomplish, leaving me frustrated and real sad. These beautiful creations - they are all made of simple shapes, connected to one another thus, creating amazing art..

I've been wanting to create 20 character designs but I haven't figured out what I really wanna do yet. So, let's see.. This blog was supposed to contain designs and tutorials pero parang napuno na ng travels. This blog should contain atleast 70% graphic design and tutorials, 20% travel and 10% random stuffs. I lost my motivation again.

D-I-Y TRIP: BAGUIO DAY 1

I am actually thinking of going back to a place twice a year to experience having to pay fares and stuffs directly out of my pocket. And of course, will travel the Travel Factor way!

TO CONTINUE OR NOT TO CONTINUE?


Me, Nads and Shane went on an impulsive trip to Baguio on a rainy June. It was an usapang lasing when Nads wanted to get away from Manila and escape her sadness at that drinking moment. The three of us agreed on a Friday night with warmly reddish but happy faces. (I canceled my Ilocos trip with Travel Factor for this) The trip was scheduled two weeks away from that day and believe it or not, we never spoke a single word about our Baguio plans after that night.

THE LOST MOUNTAIN OF BALAWIS

I had an epicly funny conversation with Che (Bi / Baklang Balahura) earlier this morning. We were talking about what I like, and that I am looking for friends na dedicated to do the things na pareho naming trip. She said she can be my walking companion and she wanna try hiking too thus, the name Mt. Balawis was born.

Richelle 

Toys.. Si Red promise! Walking.. Pwede ako!! Haha!

Dian

I know.. :D Mahilig sya magdrawing.. Saka sa manga comics. Kaya lang hindi ko sya kaclose..

Richelle 

Volunteer teh? Haha

Dian

Walking? Talaga?

THOUGHT OF YOU

Oh-sowm!

2D animation is done by Ryan Woodward. I can't help myself smiling while watching this short animation. Let alone, the music. It is both beautiful and inspiring.

DREAMING OF MY GARDEN WEDDING

Seriously?

So, I am, in amidst of an afternoon creative work, serenading myself of David Grusin's It Might Be You when I dreamt about getting married - garden wedding.. Oh so not me. Eew!

Seriously, you will fall in love with it. Most especially on "Maybe it's you, maybe it's you" flute part with piano combo. Right now, I am dreaming about the priest reading our vows while I am happily shedding bucketful of tears and my oh-so-handsome groom is giving me his best save-your-happy-tears-for-later smile. I am kind of excited and it's making me feel all lazy at the same time. I mean, look outside! It's raining and it's cold. It is the best time to just cuddle in bed, read a book while you listen to "Maybe it's you, maybe it's you" flute combo. Awww.. This feeling is indescribably amazing.. (to eat a stuffed crust pizza and have a cola for a drink is optional -- but necessary)

MAYBE IT'S YOU, MAYBE IT'S YOU
Envisioning this emotional moment is giving me goose bumps. Birds, butterflies, wind, sunset, family, friends and groom are included. (Batteries not included) I never thought of dreaming about my own wedding, not until today. But the problem is, I can't give up these things just yet:

Oh no, they are not mine. But I can't give up hotdog, my dirty chucks and my love for vinyl toys yet. :(

God has better plans for me, For He knows that I am not ready to give up things I enjoy at the present moment. I am not ready. I know that too, I am pretty sure about it.

Listening to David Grusin's It Might Be you is enough for the meantime. It is making me fall in love again. God is constantly reminding me how beautiful it is to love and be loved back. He is just busy fixing international chaos and healing those wounded people. I can wait.. :) He knows that too. And besides, commitment is not my priority. (for now)

I MISS BEING AN ACTIVE STUDENT DRUMMER - PRELUDE TO UAAP SEASON 74

The Manong Squad / High Council Members (2003) From Left to Right: Third, Chippy, Dagz, Don, Me, Lester, Ryan and Michael

About the main photo: I posted my recent picture of me with them. (I think) I know it's not decent because I left most of the original members out of the picture. I am sorry guys! :D

It was 2003 of 1st Semester when I joined the FEU Pep Squad along with Anne. The only reason why we tried our luck in there was because of the jacket and an embroidered bag with the letters FEU on it (plus the free UAAP tickets). It's our "dapat malaki at malakas" voice that made us secure a slot for the final audition. It took us a fruitful two weeks to earn our way there.

The final audition came and we became an official member of the team. Most of my classmates are members of the FEU Cheering Squad kaya madalas magkakausap kami. It was I think, in June that my seatmate and friend, JP auditioned naman for a slot in FEU Drummer churva. He was overjoyed upon learning that the Dark Age* came to an end. That means a great opportunity and they will all start from scratch. Not literally, because Ryan and Michael was a part of the Pep Squad together with the Dark Age Drummers. I think 2002 pa sila member noon. Advantage na rin for both of them because they are familiar with the drum beats. I started to show interest in joining them but being a girl is a major disadvantage. Obviously, puro boys lang sila. But I was makulit and I keep on asking Rex if I can join them. Finally, because they are really in need of members, Ryan told JP to bring me for audition. Hahaha! Tumbling ako men!

From Left to Right: Ryan, RC, Don, James, Me, Michael, Ian, TJ, JP, Marc, Lawrence, Rex and Monsi (to the rest of the guys, sorry! Hindi ko friends sa FB kaya wala akong makuhang pics)

So there, punta ako sa quarters nila sa Arts Building, 6th floor, Men's locker room. (Oh yes, men's locker room! There are lotsa tututs out there!) Oh so happy, I got all of their approvals! I play both snare and bass and I was the first girl ever to join the FEU Drummer history.

ULTIMATE BEACH BUMMING IN CALAGUAS + SURFING IN BAGASBAS

They say Calaguas is better than Boracay. I can't compare. I haven't been to Boracay, but if there's anyone generous enough to sponsor my trip, I would love to go. I promise, you will be given due credit!

We went on this trip with Travel Factor last April 30 with four of my friends + a new travel friend. I thought it was a surfing trip in Calaguas, but it turned out pretty lazy dahil literal pala talaga that when they say it's "BUMMING" they say it's "BUMMING" and trust me - if you are not a beach person, you might as well bring six of your multi-colored PSPs and unlimited stories to tell. (Write them down just in case you are forgetful) Liquor is optional, but again, necessary. It took us a total of 12-hour travel, both by land and by sea.

TIMELESS APPEAL OF THE CITY OF PINES

Cafe by the Ruins, Chuntug St., Baguio City

Tired of the routines of urban living (Manillergic), I was raring to go for a short out of town trip. With little money to spare, I wanted an adventure somewhere cold and relatively cheap. Before I went up the North, I had to ask a friend who recently visited Baguio. She claimed that Cafe by the Ruins' ambiance is artsy. (Definitely not the usual hop-on-a-park trip.) And because I felt the need to be alone, this place is perfect for a loner artist like me. There, I packed my bag and rode a bus to Baguio before Saturday daybreak to make the most out of the weekend. Anticipating a long trip, I spent the first hours of it asleep.

I awoke to stomach rumbling when the bus came to a stop in Pangasinan. The sun was crawling out of the sky but it was still cold. For a quick fill, I had a bowl of goto. Then I leaped back on the bus, watching the steep mountains as the bus made its way through and sharp curves to Baguio.

MISSION: THE GM DIET - DIDILOG NO MORE!

Today, I feel bad, heavy and full. I ate too much again today and I don't know how to resist the temptation! Rice is very addicting.

Today, I feel like my neck is missing. My head is attached to my body lang, ganon. I am having problems with my breathing. And I will not allow it to happen completely from this day forward. I am tired of being fat and unhealthy. It's my way of saying: lose the bad habit! Let's get you healthy this time! And, this is your

ADDING FACEBOOK BUTTON IN YOUR BLOG

Like button lets your reader share your post on their Facebook wall. It will automatically appear in their news feed with a link back to your site.

STEP 1 - Get the Like button here and follow my preferred options:

STEP 2 - Log in to your Blogger account, go to Design - Edit HTML

• Make sure that you tick the Expand Widget Templates
• Find the < div class='post-footer' >. 
• Paste the generated code after that. (See sample)

I find it difficult to memorize the post-footer thing, so I use the word jump sometimes. And there.. It's a sort of a shortcut for me. :) I hope you find it useful too. You can always click the "clear edits" button if you feel like you messed up. I suggest you copy your template first before anything else.

• Hit the preview button
• It should look like this:

I hope it works well on you too. Please take note that this might not work for everybody, kindly send me a message and I will try to solve whatever problem you may encounter.

ANTETENG KA TEKNOLOHIYA!

I felt the need to post. Wala lang, para masabing nakapagpost lang ako using my mobile phone. Tindi kasi ng technology. Naeelib ako, kaya lang tinatamad din akong pagaralan ngayon lahat. Feeling ko din kasi, yung time na gagamitin ko to study the newest hacking techniques, kulang na kulang. Marami akong pwedeng gawin. Hmm, ano pa ba?

Masaya ang araw na to. Lumipas ang Birthday ko na hindi ako tumangkad. Sabay kami ni Father dear na magblow ng candle. Kaya lang, hindi ko pa sya nabibilhan ng regalo. Mareklamo kasi yun.. Maarte, kala mo kagwapuhan. Hehe.. Gusto ko syang bilhan ng kyuwerti na phone kaya lang baka ibalibag sa akin. Imbes na salamat at kiss ang itanim nya sa
mukha ko, baka bukol lang. Hehe, kaya wag na. Kering keri na nya ang normal colored phone. Saka sa liit ng pindutan, baka abutin sya ng bente kwatro oras para buuin ang salitang "wer n u?"

Stig nga e. It got me thinking: bakit walang ganito noong 2002? Sabagay, 2004 nang magkaron ako ng Friendster account. Haytesh na yun. Tas diskette ang meron nun, walang USB. Nagkaron ako ng USB pero aksidente kong nalaman na pwede akong magsave ng .doc file sa mp3 player kong Muvo Creative na 250mb lang. Stig pa rin! Kaya may instant USB ako. 2005 yun.

2011 na ngayon. Paliitan na ng USB. Sa susunod, paimbisibolan na. TV nga, capable na ng internet. Sa susunod, sa salamin, pwede ka ng magteleport. Ewan ko sa iyo technology, para kang babae. Mabilis magbago! Minsan nabbwisit ako sayo kasi yung pinaglalawayan kong gadget na sobrang mahal, pag ready na akong bumili, phased out na! Anteteng ka.. Try mong sumabay sa akin, baka mahalin kita.

There. Typing like this is harder than I thought. I can't hold my phone properly overtime.

KILIG AND LANDUH MOMENTS

I am deeply inlove with a friend. Urgh! I want to tell that person to stop rocking my world because really, I am spending most of my time thinking about ****. It is consuming like, 80% of my time. That's a huge percentage. Because 20% of my time goes to sleeping. So my life today is basically spent in day dreaming. Minsan nga 10% na lang sa sleeping kasi even in my dreams, kasama sya. Oh no! Sometimes I can't help but to stare at my phone and pray na makatanggap ako ng message nya. Kahit I love you lang, hindi naman ako demanding. 

A lot of times, binabasa ko na lang ang mga previous messages nya. Haha! Kamote. Kilig moments pag nasa-sight ko sya. Ang landee, parang High School! Gustong gusto kong sabihin sa kanya ito: you made my heart skip a beat. You love me, I know right? Hahaha, in my face! Haaay, kilig! Yon, so

makita ko lang sya, I can die anytime. 

This post is through mobile email blogging. I can blog about my kiligs in an instant! Minsan kasi rush..

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Snippet, snippet, snippets.. Sniff, sniff!

OH HELL, I AM TIRED!

I thought tapos na ako sa feeling na sad and tired. Both physically and emotionally. Talo tayo pare. Bakit ganun? I've been doing things that I know will make me happy. Pero wala pa din. At some point, I am confused. Confused of the unknown. Oh God, I hate it. At some point, I feel tired of having this f*cking big stomach -- everything! I feel tired about Summer. I am tired of creating this blog post. I wanna sleep na, pero ayaw ko pa din.


Sadya talaga atang may mga tao na hindi alam ang salitang privacy and you just had a bad day at work or while walking. I don't want to get mad at the world again. I don't want to isolate myself from the world again. I still have a big future out there, somewhere out there! I am starting not to trust the people I've known for like what? For a lifetime? I don't think that's fair. Hindi ko naman masabing I am sad. Maybe, mad. I am getting angry again. I know. Can I just skip at least a week in Manila? Completely away from my comfort zone? A time to be just me and regain kung ano man ang nawala sa katauhan ko? Ang problem, hindi ko naman alam kung may nawala nga ba. O wala? Kitams. Confuse talaga!

Maybe, I need to start taking my life seriously? Respect myself, move and get fit. I am tired of being fat! Oh there, I said it. Dahil ba sa weight ko kaya ako ganito? Ewan ko. I've been like this for four agonizing years, and I don't really care about it. Not until recently? But why?

Or because I fell in love with someone pero walang courage to let the person know? Pero I don't care naman. Hindi ko naman hinangad na malaman nya. I don't have plans of divulging my extra little feelings. Biatch! :D

Or dahil wala akong masyadong project sa office? Hindi rin e. Minsan nga, mas okay ang wala. (Kadalasan pala)

Masaya naman ako sa office. Okay naman ang mga taong kasama ko. Okay naman ang mga friends ko.

Oh! Mukhang alam ko na kung bakit. Hindi pa din ako sigurado nga lang.

WHAT'S WITH THE WORLD?

SUSHI TALK

Whatev..

I was browsing food shots for Mega Creations earlier. And then I saw these cute sushi(s).

I created dialogues para may saysay ang pagpost ko dito.

Center sushi grabbed my attention so much because it appears like "he" is having conversation to the sushi next to him. Him na talaga.. :)

Image c/o Mega Fishing Corporation. Credits to the photographer. Konting credits for me dahil ang corny ko. Wahaha!

DAY 5 @ ORTIGAS OFFICE

It's sad today! Almost everyone is out of the office. They are attending some sort of training at Manila Grand Hotel in Avenida.. Kuya Totz is sick din. So, ako lang mag-isa sa Creatives. :( On the bright side, malakas ang hangin! Walang masyadong ulan pero literal, puro hangin lang. Nanunuot nga yung lamig ng hangin sa loob ng jacket ko. Madilim outside. I am wishing that somehow, maging ganito ang weather until tonight. But spare the unfortunate people na posibleng masalanta. Parang ang gulo ko ngayong umaga.


So yun. Nakikinig ako sa Tattoo ni Jordin Sparks today with Chuckie on the side. Good morning Manila! So-so ang travel ko earlier papunta sa office. Walang bago. Although yung katabi ko kamukha ni Alan David kaya okay lang. Papalibre sana ako ng pamasahe. So parang kunwari may kilala ako sa loob ng FX. I missed the FX na sinasakyan ni Vaneza earlier din. Sayang! Sana nakasakay ko na sya kanina. Sabi nya tinatawag nya ako, pero hindi ko naman narinig. Haha. Paos pala sya, kaya siguro mahina.


Kainis. Puro period! Ang dami kong sentences!


I guess, well - proven na mas mahirap mag-Tagalog pag magsusulat. Parang bawat words, matigas. Haha! Ewan! Dapat TagLish na lang para maarte.


Tatapusin ko na ang brochure ng Mega Gift Packs at ibang fliers na binigay ni Regi sa akin last Friday. Para bukas, if ever, mga revisions na lang ang aasikasuhin ko. 

25 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

A few more days to go and I am bidding goodbye on my 25th year of existence. Kasi, 26 na ako! Wooo! So what? I am traveling as much as I could, I meet friends along the way, I am happy with my work and co-workers. Naks! 

1. When I was in first grade, I used to harass two boys in my class. I would kiss them and hug them in front of our teacher. I still remember their names: Dave and Norman. 
2. I find it easier and I am comfortable browsing my phone book from Z to A. (Instead of A to Z) Sometimes before I sleep, I would browse my phone book and when I reach the first person in my list automatic yun, tulog ako. I am such a weirdo.
3. I unwittingly fall for someone who's extremely-naturally sweet and has a deep sense of humor. Get this fact: I fall in love so quickly. Malandi lang.
4. When I was a kid, I thought that it's the shirt that shrinks to fit a child. May Mighty Mouse shirt kasi ako noon. Sabi ni Mommy ko, maliit na daw sa akin kaya ibibigay ko na daw sa younger sister ko.
5. I am happier when it rains. Sometimes, even when it's the strongest typhoon. The only typhoon I ever cursed was Ondoy. Naglilimas na kasi ako ng baha palabas ng bahay namin. E dapat kasi pakanta kanta lang ako sa labas ng bahay habang naliligo sa ulan.
6. I am efficiently productive when the lights are off. Meron kasing productivity na pinilit lang. So hindi ako ganun.
7. I don't pay jeepney fare sometimes. Here are the most common reasons: Super lazy to reach for my pocket / wallet, Intimidated by a cute person in front of me that the words "Ma, bayad po" can't get out of my mouth, and when the driver is a jerk.
8. I shy away when I find you attractive. Sometimes, I bully you. Or both. But most of the time, yeah, I shy away.
9. A friend once said: "You easily blend with people". Well, I don't. I am extremely shy when approached sometimes.
10. I hate it when someone talks to me bragging about what they have and what they wanna have. I don't like it when people say Starbucks at least five times a day. I don't like it when people talk to me about what they bought using their credit cards. I have one, and I only used it once and I bought a tumblr theme for $12. I also don't like it when you talk to me about your actual savings. I don't care about yours. I am not interested about your digits. I only care about mine.
11. I don't like it when someone talks to me about their personal lives in the middle of nowhere while working.  I was like, huh?
12. I can join a hotdog eating contest. My friends from High School knew very well that I love hotdog so much. I can eat hotdog for breakfast, lunch, dinner and in-betweens for a long period of time.
13. I can be your most KJ companion when watching Tagalog horror films in big screen. I know when they will use the medium close up shots, dolly in and outs and other technical movements of the camera by listening to sound effects. Or sometimes, just by watching the bida's expressions. To your disgust, I will say it out loud. To your surprise, I was right! :)
14. I don't like bathing most of the time. Well, during weekends. If on a weekend, you ask me out and I said no, that's probably because I don't wanna take a bath.
15. I am known for being sobrang masungit and sobrang maharot at home. I can be both in a single day. If I am masungit and maharot to a friend, that's when I can say that I am being really true to you. If you find me jolly most of the time, that's because there's a lot more about me that I am not comfortable to share to you just yet. So far, some of my High School friends, Joanne, Andrea, Eric and Myrna are my friends na nasusungitan ko.
16. I only accept text messages, I reply to text messages. I don't answer calls. If I happen to accept a call, that's because I am in some place that I don't have an excuse of not answering it or plainly I wanna hear your voice.
17. I considered suicide a couple of times over petty problems. It all started when I was in High School. I have super low tolerance on pain. Be it physical pain or emotional pain. I had my tongue pierced twice to cope up with an emotional torture back in 2004 and 2008. If not with the help of my loyal friend, Aivy baka dead na ako ngayon. I super value life now. I travel because I want to see the value of life. So there, I travel for life. 
18. Pet peeves: Sluts, jejemon caps, basketball jersey, and sossy snobs.
19. I joined drum and bugle band in High School. I played flute. The shiny silvery kind of flute. I played soft ball in High School and I was a pitcher, I was an athlete. In fact, I chirped a tooth while playing. I played Fencing in College, but had to quit for a very petty reason.
20. I don't attend classes in college. In fact, they barely notice my existence. One time, Chi Manzano thought I was an irregular student attending their classes. I said no and that I was a part of the section too. And we both laugh. Sa sobrang hindi ko pagpasok, nung kukunin na ang grades they were so nervous that baka may bagsak sila. They asked my classmates kung may bagsak ako. Upon learning that I passed, they immediately went back to playing basketball. Nathaniel Simon said: "Tara na! Pasado si Di e!" it just goes to say that I am a bright kid. :) I am a humble star. 
21. I can easily get along with guys than girls. I find some girls so cocky and bold when they form a group that I wish to get out of the place fast.
22. I was kidnapped for a day when I was 15 years old. I was retrieved the following day. Fortunate little Di.
23. I have this playful habit with mascots. I kick mascots. :) It's a fun thing to do. Try it! The fun started when I wore Grimace for a birthday party at McDonald's. My co-worker, Abby tackled me! For God's sake! But do not kick a national mascot. You don't wanna pay for a lawyer, trust me. 
24. I feel uncomfortable when you say that I am cute. Try to just pinch my cheeks lightly and hug me instead and I will forever be grateful that you did. :)
25. I can make someone fall for me I I want to. :) I can be that deadly. My closest friends can attest to that.. :)

So there you have it. I had fun creating this post. Even more, I was surprised that I shared too much information. I'm pretty sure you didn't read all of them anyway. :)

SURFBOARD'S HOSPITAL STATUS: UNKNOWN

Yeah, yeah, yeah I know, right?

DAY 1 @ NEW ORTIGAS OFFICE

I really can't get over it. I am sooo not 100% productive today. Ano bang gagawin ko later?

1. Check out AAK for Capoeira class
2. Walk with Aivy
3. Go home
4. Sleep

We went to AAK after office to check out Capoeira class at Megamall. Unfortunately, they moved out of the gym 2009 pa. Ha! Updated ang website nila, I don't have a doubt about it. :(

ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! (AND TO MY TAY NA DIN)

Funny lang. Emo lang. Post ko lang. Blog ko to e. Saka malapit na ang Birthday ko, excited ako. Pero konti lang. Period.

Screenshot ng MFC homepage. Araw araw na sumasampal sa mukha ng mga taga Mega. 

ONE DAY TIL MY CALAGUAS SURFING

And I don't feel good.. :( I had a terrible abdominal pain last night which triggered my first fever for the past one and a half year. I can't explain how painful it is. I can still feel it. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko dito.. Somehow I know that I need to see the ocean and watch the stars at night. I am crossing out two items from my bucket list after this trip. I know that the Lord will come and surf with me on Saturday. His daughter is so adventurous now at madami pa syang gustong gawin.


I find it funny when people found out that trip kong magsurf at gagawin ko talaga. There's this are-you-serious look sa mga pagmumukha nila. They always ask the same question: "kaya ka ba ng surfboard?" as if the board is breathing and is preparing its muscles three months ahead before I ride them. They don't ask me IF I can ride the surfboard. Funny no? These people. I swear to God, will bow down before me. Hahahahaha!


I know I can't swim and yet I am trying this sport. But I have this feeling that if I want to do something unusual, I just have to trust the people around me and lift my spirit to God. This could be my last blog post, I don't know. I might die on Saturday. Hahahahahaha! Sheeet ang arte ko. Ang morbid pa. 


I am posting pictures of my Calaguas + Bagasbas trip when I get back. For the meantime, mag-aayos muna ako ng gamit ko. I don't know if I will bring my camera (Canary) with me. I don't want to worry about Canary getting wet anyway. So yeah, hindi ko na dadalin. :)


Thanks to my friends who came with me. I can't thank the guys enough.  Matinding pilitan ang nangyari dito. Haha. E sila lang ang game sa ganung trip sa mga office friends ko e. So yun.. I know that I will have a good time. :)

SUPER SCARY ONLINE GAME: HOTEL 626

Oh yeah?

K. If you're a fan of horror movies or stories, then this one's definitely for you: Hotel 626

Hotel 626 is open from 6PM to 6AM daily. That's obviously where they got their name, right? If your butt's increasingly can't get over the scary shit out of your system, you can just change your computer's time allowing you to enter the site earlier than 6PM. But! Take note: BUT! But if you want to feel the excitement this site has to offer, I suggest you wait until the "hotel" opens. Anyway I think you may want to experience all the scary shit alone. (devil smile) This, I think is the scariest game! I played Silent Hill and Resident Evil before and none of them compared to Hotel 626. I am speaking for myself ha.

So you are a guest in the hotel. And you need to get yourself out of the building. Hindi ko na sasabihin ang buo. I want you guys to experience the game itself. 

You need to register. Click the enable webcam and mic for better experience.

Seriously, turn off your lights and put your headphones on! 

The hallway

Your bedside

Ha! It freaked me out! Really!

I swear to God, I don't want to take a picture of some girl popping in and out of my sight in real life.

CONFUSED AND UNDECIDED AT THE AGE OF 25

There you have it. I announced my age already. I am not ashamed as I used to. At this age, maybe I need to start taking life seriously and yeah, act appropriately my age... (Silence) BUT I CAN'T DO IT!!

Top 10 reasons why I like being normal (and when I say normal, that's literally saying I am only thwee at heart.):

1. I like throwing practical jokes to my friends. (Even if I was so darn nervous when they started calling security personnels. To this date, I never told them yet. And I don't have plans of telling them. Haha!) 
2. I like calling them weird names 
3. I like liking Backstreet Boys and Spice Girls 
4. I like showing my butt to my four-year old nephew at home and laugh when he scream like a girl. 
5. I like playing games and forget about the world. 
6. I like laughing like a maniac or scream to death when I feel like doing it at home. Ask my sisters about this. Haha! Oh no.. 
7. I like kissing and smelling my high school friend Jason in public. He. Is. Not. My. Boyfriend. I kiss him like he's a baby. And he smells nice too. A mix of Penshoppe's Paint and cigarette. 
8. I like collecting toys. I wanna collect plush toys now. Haha. See? 
9. I like it when my nephew thinks we are of the same age, four. He told me so. Haha! 
10. I like receiving small toys from my nephew when he's done with it. Saying: "Tita Di, sayo na lang to." 

Top 3 reasons why I don't like to grow up:

1. Responsibilities 
2. Death 
3. Sickness 

I fear them the most. Everybody does. Life is too short to waste time being worried and getting sad. For the past few months, I look at the mirror and say: I am not getting any younger and I can feel it. But it doesn't show. I look cuter than ever with this round face and irresistible smile. But that's not the point. Haha! I gained almost 19 lbs in less than five months and I know that it's not good. I am thinking of getting myself into capoeira or to lessen my food consumption but it's not easy. I feel tired all the time. I feel sleepy most of the time and when it's time to take a rest, I don't feel like doing so. I still want to do more and cross out things from my bucket list. With this weight, I don't think I can do any of it. Well, I'm trying. Anyway, kasama ang pag-lose ng 20 lbs sa bucket list ko.

I've been working as a graphic designer for four months already and I feel like hindi ako nag-improve as an illustrator. I wanted to draw. I want to draw. I want to create. But I don't know where to start. Man is really insatiable. I know na nasa right path ako. I'm here already. I am a designer already. And now, it's up to me to make the most out of it.