WHAT'S KEEPING ME AWAKE, DOC?

I slept 12 hours straight yesterday. I am still awake at 3:30 on a Monday morning. And I have to go to work later. This sleeping needs to be tamed! It is getting out of control. This is just so sad. Namumutla na ako because of this.

What's keeping me awake anyway? The word "lie" and anything associated to it. People find it easier to lie. Bakit kaya? It's just sad again. 

That pup keeps on barking/crying every one hour. I need to attend to her. Hay. 

Some Facebook account I wrongly stalked earlier. I can't get over his kagwapuhan. He's so nakakagigil. 

The internet again! Damn it. 

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WELL GOD, THIS IS FOR YOU!

Tonight, I did something I wasn't able to do for the past four years and it made me really happy. Thank you Lord for everything. Thank you for our home, thank you for my family. Thank you for my friends and thank you for making me happy.. :-) I can't thank you enough for this peaceful mind and loving heart. 

Just wow. Thank you! 

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OLAF

I am thinking about Olaf today. That cute little snowman from the animated movie, Frozen. This dialogue is running in my head for hours and it is driving me crazy - "I don't know why but I always love the idea of summer!" 

Like, why? 

Here's why: because Olaf doesn't have an experience with heat. 

But in the Philippines, it's as if you're living beside a pugon. And I hate summer. I hate heat. Kahit saan ako magpunta, mainit! Even in the office. In my area. Sana may magawa ako tungkol doon. I could cry and throw an eternal tantrum because of heat. I swear. 

Let it snow, let it snow, can't take the heat anymore. Let it snow, let it snow, turn away and slam the doooooor!! 

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FRUSTRATED.

I can't sleep again and it's starting to really frustrate me. I stopped browsing the net early, I haven't eaten anything, haven't consumed caffeine and I went to bed early. I am not even sure if I fell asleep already. My head is really heavy but I can't sleep. My situation is really frustrating. I can't think properly at work, I am sleepy in the afternoon and my memory is really failing na. I don't know what's happening. I'm not even depressed.

I need to work today and I always have little time for everything. We've been pretty loaded this year and I need to keep up everyday. I have so many artworks to revise as in araw araw. Deadlines are everywhere! I can't survive another day drinking Cobra. God, it's gonna cost me my life. I can't go back to bed now. Sigurado akong hindi na naman ako magigising ng tama. My eye is twitching for weeks already. I really want to get a decent rest. 

God help me.

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2014 YAY MOMENTS!

So many good things happened for the past months and it's really awesome! 2014's been good to me. I owe this awesomeness to just One and I know despite of all my shortcomings, You will love me for the rest of my life. Thank you, thank you. Let's do this together. Yay!

1. I had a good 12-hour straight sleep last night! Yay! 

2. We had movie and merienda kahit may dysmenorrhea attack ako. Yay!

3. Yesterday is an awesome day dahil malamig ang hangin habang naglalakad sa labas. Yay!

4. I received a surprise Mary Grace ensaymada from EdJames last Tuesday kahit feeling ko bribe nya yon. Haha! Joke lang. Yay!

5. Nakasabay kong pumasok si Sir Eric at nagtaxi kami papasok ng office. Hindi ako naharass sa LRT. Yay!

6. Sir Ali gave me a CamperVan Hotwheels last Friday! Yay!

7. I had Mogu-Mogu and Combos tonight. Yay!

8. I spent so much time with Sarah Geronimo under one roof (again) last Month! And more kilig moments with her. Yay! Yay!

9. We went to Ms. Toni's for a boodle fight, booze, dancing, singing and playing. Oh and Miggy time.. :-) Yay!

10. I received my SLA certificate and I saw my savings from September to November with 6% dividend. Yay!

11. I have my multi-million peso savings now. And it's growing fast because of dividends. Kidding. Ang sarap sabihin kung totoo. Pero, I saved enough money to spend for Batanes with accom and roundtrip regular airfare plus other expenses, one week. I could go there three times tapos hindi ako mawawalan ng panggastos paguwi. :-) it's been the highlight of this year. Pinaghirapan kong isave for a year and a half and thanks to my Ate for saving and growing it for me. Thank you for convincing me that I need to do that before I turn 30. Thanks to SM SLA for helping me control my expenses and to BPI for earning me a little dividend every month. I love you all most especially my Ate. :-) Yaaaaaaaaaaay!! Think positive lang!

12. For the first time in 7 years, I received an excellent sa appraisal. I know everybody in our department received the same results but I didn't expect for myself. I am just happy about it. Not bad for a first timer. Yaaaay!

13. I tried ice skating already! But the boots are uncomfortable. Yay!! One thing off the bucket list!

14. We planned for the ultimate trip of our lives. Eurotrip! Yay!!

15. God called Wednesday last week. I went to Greenbelt chapel. Homily was for me. :-) yay!

It's easier to count things like these when you're happy. It's not everyday naman na happy ka because you get sad and tired from time to time but then again, that's life. I'm just glad I made it through 2013. God is there talaga. Hope, Faith and Love will keep you going. 

Cheers for more yay moments! 

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RANDOM THOUGHTS BEFORE I SLEEP. AND TRIVIAS!

So I noticed that I posted three times in a row since yesterday. Fourth today. Actually nagblog lang ako to add one para masabing updated na.. Haha, bwiset. 

I missed writing (Past tense talaga?) and reading. Hay, there's so much stuff to do during the day and I always have little time for everything. I just wish magstop muna the impromptu requests (like printing and image requests) para madami na kaming matapos na projects. :-( I really, really, really want to finish everything in one day. Because I have the fastest PC ever (because everything's new and I am the first owner. That's one year in the making ha!) Despite all the stress, I still love my job, the people I am working with and my company. They provided me the best of eveything. Well, it's an overstatement but who cares? :-) so now let's use hashtags here: #SMDC #SMDCStarLife #Marketing #BestJobEver #HighTechSmartPhone #MaisingitLang

Oh and oh, oh, I forgot to mention, close na kami ni Sarah Geronimo! :-) this is where I am so frustrated to insert a photo! More of this on my next blog na nga laaaaang. 

What else? I found myself in-love with Darth Vader/Anakin Skywalker and his relationship to Queen Amidala. But it's a sad story. I am such a loser. Everybody else I know watched the movie from years back and me, nagsstart pa lang. Also, I forgot I bought Luke Skywalker's vinyl figure (Mighty Muggs) four years ago. Hindi pa ako fan ng Star Wars that time and I was super giggling like a three-year-old when I unboxed the toy last Sunday. Gosh, gosh! <3 

I also bought Legos for me and my nephew. I bought him a race car and I bought myself a log truck. :-) #BawasKayamanan

TRIVIA: I still get myself confused with the words "nephew and niece" and "condensed and evaporated milk". If I will to identify that a boy is a nephew, I think of Louie, Hewey and Dewey. :-) naalala ko pa yung part ng comics kung bakit tumatak sa isip kong theyare Donald's nephews. Isa ito sa sinabi ni Dewey: "I am so hungry I could eat three five-storey buildings!" With "gatas na malabnaw at malapot", minsan hindi ko pa din alam ang pagkakaiba. Lately lang. Because I always drink the Alaska in can. The one you pour in cereals. I think that's evap? 

I will start creating more Tutubi Comics and update Di's Guide to (Lazy) Life na. Yes? Yes? :-) madami nang bloopers!

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AN OBLIGATORY SLEEP UPDATE

I am compelled to post an update about me not sleeping today for work. Oh, and by the way, I failed. I woke up 7:41 AM today and arrived 23 minutes late. So much for trying to win the challenge, eh? 

I don't like using my email when posting. I can't maximize the theme of this blog. Meaning all the creative stuff I promised myself on doing for the past years. Well blog, you could be my diary. How'd you like that? You, me, and our personal-cyber-connection. Haha! 

I miss posting pictures. What else? I am inlove with Darth Vader. :-) 

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OH. ANOTHER 24 HOURS.

If there's one thing I hate about me being active, it's I stay up late at this hour (time check: 2:48 AM) and feeling really pumped. I could sweep our neighbor's front yard, I could scratch the muddy surface of a monster truck and friends, I don't do drugs. It's just that I am alive at most during the night. Let me tell you a story about this problem when I was still a child. 

At 7 months, my Mom would love to throw me out the window for not letting her get enough rest during the night because of my crying. End of story. Lagi kong problema ang pagtulog ng maaga. I guess hihintayin ko na namang mag-umaga. Kasi kung matutulog pa ako, I am sure magagamit ko na naman ang leave ko. Mahiya naman ako. Plus, plus, it's okay din because Sir Chad and Ms. Val made a commitment to split the Php 6,000 off our travel expenses to Vietnam IF we promise not to miss a day off at work. That includes ofcourse the lates and unplanned leaves. :-) the race is on. Challenge accepted. Haha!

My head is starting to feel heavy. Maybe if I put my phone down, aantukin ako. 

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BREAK UPS ARE REAL AWFUL

This may not be a good subject because of this very sensitive issue for my office friend, but definitely worth the share. 

As always, before I hit the sack (and because I found another set of excuses to maximize the use of my ever high-tech smartphone) I read articles in Play Newsstand. I got bored, and I thought about this office-department-friend suffering in deep depression as of this very right moment. 

She experienced her first real heartbreak, also with an office-department-friend (her first boyfriend) recently and this experience shattered her heart into tiny microscopic pieces. I read her blog a few minutes earlier and it got me thinking: how the hell she's gonna go through that pain in the morning? I know break-ups are awful. But if there's one thing I learned about break-ups, it's something you will never really understand unless you go through the stage of "bargaining". You know, that stage where you send him messages and ask for last chance(s) and forgiveness and all those shits and you promise to make up for your mistakes and be a better girlfriend and the list goes on... Or you ask for God's help to make your ex realize you're the right person for him and you promise to spend all your Sundays inside the church or feed the homeless from the day God grant your prayer. Yeah, aminin na natin, we've been through these bargainings. Bad news: that'll only make things worst for you.

Sometimes, (sometimes ha!) Break-up isn't always about third parties but because you need to free yourself from all the stress and all the drama. (Yun o!) The nagging is really getting on your partner's nerves and the stress is unbearable already, he decided to call it off. Sabi ko tuloy sa sarili ko, meron pala talagang ganitong reason. Because I don't understand it myself. Naniwala lang ako sa dahilan na it's love e. You do everything in the name of love. That no matter how you start hating the fights everyday, you just gotta ignore the stress because you thought at the end of the day, kayo pa din. You don't realize the respect is fading away slowly. And so you know what will happen next. I am not giving advices here. 

We had a conversation but I don't think she heard what I said. But I understand. Pero sabi ko sa kanya, please stop sending him messages because you will hurt yourself in the process. Her situation is really hard because she get to see the guy everyday. Naiintindihan ko ang nararamdaman nya tapos inadmit din naman nyang sya ang mostly may kasalanan. I also understand the guy kasi he got tired na. I wonder if she's sleeping already. I hope she's sleeping already and dreaming about rainbows and unicorns and eating chocolate milk candies. God please help her heal quickly. Thank you. 

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