I LOVE YOU, I HATE YOU

You're the only one who can see this post. Kaya alam mo na na ikaw ang tinutukoy ko.
I am making this list to write the things I hate about you.

1. I hate your thoughtfulness - You make me feel special. You always make me believe in love. I do. But with you, it's a different story.
2. I super hate your sweetness - This thing is making me fall for you real deep. It's a good thing we don't see each other often. 
3. I hate the way you make me laugh - Effortlessly. Nuff said.
4. I hate your presence - I hate it when I find my self smiling even when you're just sitting beside me.
5. I hate your vulnerability
6. I hate it when I can see you're uncomfortable and tired. I wanna take all of it away, but I can't. I don't know how.
7. I hate the way you come into my mind in the middle of the night. When I think about you, para akong nasa bar. Gumugulo ang tahimik kong mundo.
8. The way you talk - I hate the way you talk to me. It makes me want to listen even to your silent sighs.
9. I hate it when I am hoping to receive a text message from you almost everyday.

But even if my falling in love with you just means listening to your funny stories, watching your hand gestures, watching you have fun, then I'd be happy to just watch you get close to the things you desire the most. I would hate the things that make you stand out above the rest and secretly fall in love over and over again. Because with you, it's different. Because with you, I am happy. Because with you, I am selfless. Because with you, every broken pieces of my self is whole. Because I love you - unselfishly.

YAKIMIX AT THE PODIUM

Two of my favorite girls in the world, Aica and Tina.. :)
Photo by Allan David; Camera from Joice Pineda.. :)

I was never a fan of Japanese food. In fact, my younger sister was encouraging me to try some but I never want to stuff my mouth with raw shrimps and meat. Kumakain lang ako ng luto, heavens! I said yes to Aica last Friday, September 9 para maiba naman ang trip ko sa food. True enough, I was satisfied naman with raw crab sticks or whatever it is. But it doesn't change my taste about the Japanese food. I neither like nor dislike it.

TEAM MANILLERGIC

I am thinking of creating vector characters for my friends. In this case, the Team Manillergic. They've given me enough reasons to ride a bus and spend long hours of it asleep, unconsciously waiting for a new place to breed -- I mean, see.. :)

These guys are awesome! Ang tagal ko din kayang naghanap ng travel friends. I can't wait to finish their avatars!

Me and Aica Lenon.. :)

What I am doing is still a work in progress.. I am not good with shadowing yet. I have the perfect excuse of doing this by practicing it with my friends. Haha!

BINAGYO SA BAGUIO

Nina Typhoon. Landslide and long weekend. Baguio. My sanctuary.
Feeling ko kasi noong past life ko, I was an Igorot. Siguro kaya kating kati ako to go back in Baguio.
Kailangang magkwento, para maiba.

Allan and Me at Bencab Museum's Graffiti Wall.
Photo by Tina Bacud

Everytime na pumupunta ako ng Baguio, laging new experience. At laging umuulan. I have to say thanks to my friends who are more than willing to roll and get dirty. No itinerary for this trip. No plans. No nothing. Ang saya lang because when you don't have plans, it's where you get your most unforgettable experiences lalo when you feel that the air is filling out your lungs because you are physically tired. I got sick. Terrible cough. I think I passed the virus to Tina kasi hindi kami nangangalamansi unlike Allan. Haha! And I will never trade these kind of moments over money. Shet.

CANYON COVE BEACH CLUB OFFER FROM ENJOY PHILIPPINES

Enjoy the best of Canyon Cove Beach Club with this new offer from Enjoy Philippines October 2011-2012 edition! Oh heavens.. I can't wait to spend my precious lazy time in here. Like, yeah. I can see it coming. I can imagine now the comfort my hotel bed's gonna give me when I slump my body on it.

I will get myself wasted with Tequilla and dance under the moonlight. Wasted talaga? Pakshet. I never gotten myself drunk, that I need to crawl out of a bar or whatever. It sounds real fun! And then, I will watch the stars make out!

ANG POST NA WALANG KWENTA

Had I been impulsive and stubborn, I don't have an idea. I just need to get out again. I am missing my dear friends terribly. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Gusto kong itaktak ang laptop, hindi ko alam kung anong hinahanap ko. Gusto kong lumabas. Ayokong matulog. Bakit hindi ko binigyan ang sarili ko ng oras para magisip? Bakit ako nagisip, kung magiging ganito naman pala ako?

Gusto kong tumayo, gusto kong humiga. Gusto kong buksan ang refrigerator at kumuha ng yelo. O maghanap ng Chuckie sa container. Gusto kong inumin ang Carlo Rossi. Gusto kong magtequilla. Gusto kong umalis. Maglaba kaya ako? Parang pagod na ako. Ano ang gagawin ko? Gusto kong magpost ng matino. Gusto kong magkwento tungkol sa bagong work pero hindi ko alam kung saan maguumpisa. Gusto kong mag Facebook pero ayoko na. Parang gusto ko na lang ilog-out.

Nako-confuse ako. Gusto ko bang magsound trip? O magmovie marathon? Gusto kong magdrawing. Gusto kong magblog. Gusto kong masaing sa ganitong oras. Tumingin sa kawalan, tumulala. Mainlove. I am inlove. Wag yan, lalandi na naman ako sa moment ko. Tsaka na ako haharot.

Gusto kong magenglish. Gusto kong magkapampangan. Gusto ko ng hotdog. Gusto kong magSogo. Gusto kong ayusin ang blog ko. Ano na? Ano na nga ba?