1,688 WORDS OF SADNESS

I am into a state of whatever-kind-of-shock right now. I will try to put into details as much as possible. This is not what I am good at: storytelling.


For the past years, I fear sickness and death. I fear having to experience the same thing as of those people who grieve for their friends or family members going to that part of the human cycle. I fear thoughts of death and how one will going to die and things like that. I fear shedding bucketful of tears in one minute. I fear how much terrible emotional pain I have to endure in one second. I am afraid of being helpless. I have no billion-peso bank account; my career isn’t stable as of now. Haven’t found what I want to do in my life yet (that’s going to earn me a million bucks a year) and most of all, I am not emotionally stable yet. I fear great responsibility.


I know that I am not the only one who experiences this kind of emotional torture every single day. I stare at this blank page for more than a minute trying to put into detail how I really feel today. I feel confused, angry, sad and all. I don’t want to go back praying to God to take me right at this moment. I know, there’s more to life than that. And whatever they are, I am so not prepared!


My Dad is getting older every month. I barely talk to him. We barely have a meaningful conversation. I haven’t said a decent I love you yet. I once wrote a letter to him on his 65th birthday. (2010) and it says:


Tay,
Happy Birthday! Labyu! Hehehe..
Love, Di


I don’t know how to say it on a daughter-father way. One side of me felt happy. The other one is the opposite. Every night, I look at him sleeping and every time I do this, there’s this tiny painful pinch in my heart and a burning sensation in my soul. He’s getting old. So am I, with a little thousand peso in my bank account.


I am not sure if he knew what course I took or whatever talent I have. Sometimes I think he don’t know much about me. What makes me happy, what things I can do when I am mad, or when I am upset. I am not sure if he knows I am into writing, reading and day-dreaming. But there are things I am sure he knows about me well: my name is Dian and my surname is Licop. That we live on the same address, we share the same birthday and I love eating. I don’t know. I don’t have the courage to ask him. I don’t have the courage to tell him how much I really, really, really love him even if he knew little about me.


Every morning when I wake up, I see him in his old rituals: jogging inside our home, doing 70++ push ups, thousand jumping jacks and eat his oatmeal or sometimes, read the newspaper outside sitting in the driver’s seat in our vehicle / chatting with his fellow oldies. Hahaha! When I get home, it’s either he’s watching DVDs or taking a bath. And sometimes, we eat dinner together and watch DVDs again. And then, again he prepares to sleep. That’s how I spent a day inside the house with my Dad. We also have moments where I ask about guns, the DVD he is currently watching, and watch the same movie or a boxing match together. We don’t talk about school (or maybe he went tired after following me inside the school when I was in high school talking to my teachers and trying to fix my educational problems), we don’t talk about how a day went for me, we don’t talk about me getting into a serious relationship. Well, at least I am happy I get to shout “you are such a mother fucker boxer #1!” or “you go to hell, you son of a bitch” when watching a boxing match. And he doesn’t slap me!


Reality sucks, and I am always not in the mood of talking in the morning.


I fear sitting, unable to contribute financially to my family. I am not selfish. I just don’t want to be empty-handed in the future. I always have this thinking that when they have little, I got more to give. And I have proven that this kind of tactic works for me and for my Ate.


She’s definitely the strongest woman in the earth. She sent us to college; we went to a decent university in the Philippines because of her. She’s a fighter. I can’t imagine how much pain she had during a struggle in her past romantic relationships. I, myself experienced having cried a “bucketful” of tears while trying to get up and face the resentful seconds of a fresh wound in the heart. I can’t imagine how she went through that phase in her life while feeding us, going to work to pay our monthly bills and her credit cards.


She never got to have her own family because of us. That’s how great her love is. She’s working for three decades now while doing the first three sacrifices. I don’t know how to pay her back. I want to take care of her. But you see, I always have a problem about showing them how much I love them. But instead, I don’t let them see how I get affected by their sickness, their problems, and their hopes. My sister has this bone problem in her leg. She’s complaining how much it hurts when doing a simple activity. Earlier today, she showed us the difference of her right leg from the other one. And we saw a huge difference. It’s kind of flat from left side of her right leg. It’s not straight anymore. It slapped me hard. I want to do something. I wanted to cry but that’s a sign of again, a fucking weakness!


The cold nights I spent in the hospital a few years back while she’s sleeping in the hospital bed while fighting for dengue went back to me vividly. As I wrote my Christmas Vacation project for my Journalism class that night, I was crying helplessly. I was counting the room’s corners. I am unable to contribute help that time. I want to take away the pain. I want to take it fast and transfer the pain to me. Or I can take all the shots from that evil needles every three hours so my sister can sleep long during the night. But I can’t. And that made me feel so helpless. I stopped writing for a while and went downstairs. I called a friend and that is one reason why I still remember her telephone number. My sadness made the night extra cold. Everything went frigid; everything is so vignette around me. It is as if I am walking down the hallway alone yet, everyone is there, frozen. My world went blank. The only thing I contributed during this time was, I requested for a promissory note and didn’t use the money she gave me to pay for my tuition. And that is what we used for her other hospital bills. (Unknowingly aware that this event might happen)


As I gathered my emotional strength while examining her leg, I snapped back “you have a lot of time to visit a doctor, you can file a leave and visit a doctor and you didn’t! You bought a special sandal and it’s no use!” In that second, I was furious. The next three seconds, I am helpless. The next minute, I am sad. The next hour, I am writing.


I know she knew a lot of things about me. How I went mad over a missing pair of socks. How I went gaga over a movie. She knew when I am happy, when I am sad or when I am mad. She knew almost everything I am not even aware of. She’s literally the family’s walking encyclopaedia and I fear of losing her. She’s my favourite debate partner (because I always want to snap the opposites when we are discussing things) and my best friend.


Because of these things, I am into a deep thought. I need to gather all the possible strength from life’s sources. But I don’t know where. I don’t know how. I fear losing all my family members right before my eyes. I believe they are all immortals. In that way, I can patch the sadness and fear of losing them. I can turn the world upside down. I can control how the world will work with me.


As I blog my way around, I am immortal too. I am immortal by stamping these 1,477 words (recent count) on the net. When I gain my mortal state and leave my sanctuary, someone’s going to read this once in a while. And then, I realized: I fear that this account will be hacked. I fear of leaving. I fear of not seeing the world. I fear getting out of someone else’s life. I fear of closing my eyes forever. I fear of not hearing the world’s greatest sounds. I fear of forgetting and remembering. I fear of losing my immortality. That’s the reason why one night, I was kind of remembering what I was in my past life. Because I said “It is okay if I die, I am going to live and reincarnate anyway. I am going to see the world again.”


Lord, whatever you want me to do while I am still alive, please help me through this. Please give me the strength I need. I always fear of getting sick, I fear of not having a billion-peso bank account, I fear of losing all my family and friends. I fear well, everything. You know what I have in mind. Please, please, please. And thank you for the Novartis job.


I am closing this blog with word count of: 1,688.

HURRR..

June 15, 2010

And yet, again, another day to spend at the office. I wasn’t in a good mood to sing my heart out today. I dunno if I feel nervous right at this moment. Is it about the class opening? Has it something to do with my mood as I heavily stood up earlier (darn, it’s such a cold, cold morning!), set-thinking that I should get up early to avoid the Tuesday traffic? To add a little pressure on my busy morning, I rushed to the front porch earlier to hang my almost-dry-washed clothes.

I wasn’t into this kind of rituals after a household activity on a weekend. I feel tired and well, consumed. I don’t want my sister to literally do everything around the house. It’s not good. One thing I repeatedly realizing: I should do things on my own now. I should get out of my comfort zone and battle the unknown! I should bravely stand and face all the monsters in my closet! For God’s sake, I’m 25! But, how? Getting back, after the non-usual-household activity, I lazily went up on our main bedroom, slumped the dry clothes in the corner, gathered all my personal bath materials, went down and bathe my lazy ass back there. Surprisingly, the water isn’t shower-cold.

I happily took the opportunity because It’s kind of a once-in-a-lifetime event. After I washed all the lazy-morning dirt out of my system, I went back upstairs, iron my clothes, and comb my ever-tangled hair blah-blah-blah. And oh, it’s also my nephew’s first day as a senior kinder at Narra Learning Center. I wasn’t able to see him wearing his baby blue uniform because his Tita Di needs to get out of the house before eight. Hihihi.

USAPANG MAYA, TAPOS GENERAL KNOWLEDGE NA

Riyah Dizon: (July 27, 2010 16:37:29)
ingats
Riyah Dizon: (July 27, 2010 16:37:28)
ok
Riyah Dizon: (July 27, 2010 16:37:33)
hahah
Riyah Dizon: (July 27, 2010 16:37:34)
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Riyah Dizon: (July 27, 2010 16:37:31)
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Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:46:42)
psstt
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:47:27)
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Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:49:38)
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:53:18)
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Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:53:22)
((
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:54:19)
panget
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:55:29)
ka
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:55:45)
tuloy na kami sa Sagada ngayong darating na Aug 21
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:55:45)
mas pangit ka hahaha
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:55:55)
may ilong ako.. :D
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:55:56)
oo na kahpon mopa sinabi hahahahaha
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:56:07)
o e bakit meron dn nmn ako eh
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:56:08)
ay kahpon pa ba? nakalimutan ko..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:56:12)
san banda? :D
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:56:15)
hehehe..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:56:19)
pasalubong ni andrei ha
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:56:38)
uu, sangkalan. O kaya barrel man
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:56:50)
Hirap magipon tangina..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:56:53)
sungka nlang
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:57:01)
meron ba don non?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:57:09)
Datu Puti gusto mo?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:57:21)
ang kinis ko talaga. :D
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:57:22)
kla ko ba sa isang cut off pmbili ng ps3 na OT mo
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:57:23)
hehehe..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:57:26)
wag kc magstos
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:57:45)
sungka hindi suka!!!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:57:46)
uu nga.. ang hirap magipon. Everytime na may pinapasok kasi akong pera sa banko, nbbawasan ko din..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:57:50)
uu nga sungka!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:57:52)
SUNGKA
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:57:57)
yung may buto buto..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:58:09)
uu
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:58:13)
na may kwarto
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:58:24)
sira hindi
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:58:29)
anong kwarto ka jan
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:58:33)
yung parang paglalagyan nya..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:58:33)
ano yan hotel hahahha
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:58:41)
ahhh oo
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:58:45)
kwarto nmn kc term eh
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:58:46)
hahahahaha! gago, kwarto tawag ko don e. epal ka..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:58:46)
hahhaa
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:58:52)
e ano ba?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:59:02)
dko din alam actually
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:59:03)
hehehehhe
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:59:07)
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:59:18)
ngmamaganda ka.. hindi mo din pala alam tawag don. amp ka..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:59:39)
hahahahha
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:59:48)
kwarto un..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 14:59:48)
atleast alm ko ano pinktwg sa larong un
Dian:(July 28, 2010 14:59:53)
sungka.
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:00:06)
ano ang pmbansang laro ng pilipino?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:00:43)
weh, ang tagal magreply..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:00:46)
wag mo igoogle
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:00:58)
ang tagal..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:01:03)
AMPNESS ka.. :D
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:02:10)
ay ang tagal. inip na ako..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:02:28)
aabutin na ng December bago dumating ang sagot na yan..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:02:34)
Hindi ka Pilipino. Isa kang dayuhan..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:03:41)
saglit tumae ako
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:03:49)
sipa ang pambansang laro
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:03:53)
o ano?????
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:03:57)
weh?!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:04:08)
ano ang pambansang ibon?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:04:19)
ano to balik grade skul
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:04:21)
ahahahha
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:05:27)
sagutin mo!!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:05:29)
hehehe
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:05:48)
edi si ibong adarna
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:05:57)
gagu naman to e.. dali na..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:06:04)
hehehe
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:06:08)
agila tanga
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:06:23)
Hahahahahahahaha!!! Tagnina, natawa ako!!!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:06:27)
Hahahahahahaha!!!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:06:36)
Natanga pa ako!
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:06:39)
o bakit hndi ba
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:06:45)
hahahahhaha
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:06:46)
Agila ka pa jan with pride ha.. tanga, MAYA!
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:07:14)
maya mo mukha mo!!!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:07:15)
Wahahaha, biglang search sa google..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:07:17)
research mo pa
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:07:29)
eagle ang pmbansang ibon!!!!!
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:07:37)
pambansang hayop kalabaw
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:07:40)
kala mo ha
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:07:54)
favorte subject ko ang HEKASI no hahaha
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:08:20)
tanga, maya!
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:08:31)
niresearch mo?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:09:13)
maya..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:09:58)
The Philippine Eagle was named the national bird of the Philippines in 1995 by President Fidel V. Ramos under Proclamation No. 615
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:10:01)
aapela ka pa ah!!!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:10:13)
hahahahahaha! tawa ako ng tawa hahahahaha!!
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:10:27)
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:10:29)
kla mo
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:10:32)
maya ka jan
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:10:37)
isa ka rin s knla
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:10:37)
o, 1995.. E grade 5 ako non.. E tinuro yan sa amin, grade 2 ako..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:10:58)
Hahahahahahaha!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:11:14)
Tinetest lang kita kung hanggang san ka magreresearch.. :D
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:11:33)
sus hahahahaha
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:11:53)
hahahahaha! bawal search ha.. Pambansang prutas?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:12:18)
huy
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:12:22)
edi manga
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:12:31)
Hindi!!!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:12:33)
)
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:12:35)
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:12:47)
gago ka ginugudtym mko
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:12:53)
d mko matatalo pgdating jan
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:12:56)
Hahahaha! O game.. Isa pa.
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:13:13)
Hindi matatalo ha.. Leche ka, baka magsearch ka bigla sa google.. ang saya..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:13:18)
Game..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:13:24)
o heto ano pinkamalking ibon
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:13:38)
saan>
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:13:40)
dito?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:13:46)
sa pinas? o in general?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:13:54)
general
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:14:04)
Alam ko, Ostrich
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:14:15)
oha, oha, oha!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:14:38)
ano pa, ano pa?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:14:44)
oi beng, ang tagal mo..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:14:49)
pabilisan tayo sagot e..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:14:51)
pinkamaliit na isda
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:15:07)
ay, hindi ako magkakamali. tinanong na sa akin ni eric yan. Pandaca pygmea
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:15:50)
batuhan ng general info tuloy tayo ngayon.
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:16:08)
wait lng my dumting n bisita
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:16:24)
ay!!!!!!!!!!! AY!!!!!!!!! tanginang bisita yan!
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:27:47)
im back
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:28:28)
pssstt
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:30:27)
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:32:48)
psssstttt
Dian:(July 28, 2010 15:33:24)
teka lang beng ha,
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:33:33)
hay nmn
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:35:22)
tallest mountain in pinas ano?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:47:30)
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:52:04)
oi
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 15:57:03)
hoy asan kna
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 16:20:42)
ois
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 16:31:27)
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:07:59)
wait
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:18:52)
hoy
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:20:03)
hoy
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:20:11)
tingnan mo survey question ko sa fb
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:20:24)
hindi ko pa sya machecheck dito. sa haus na lang. ano un?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:20:35)
bzta matutuwa ka
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:20:42)
now na, dali..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:20:44)
dali dali
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:20:46)
dali na.
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:21:16)
ano pambansang ibon ng pilipinas
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:21:20)
hahhaha
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:21:24)
may sumagot tingnan mo
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:21:26)
ahahahahahaahahahaha!!!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:21:29)
san?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:21:33)
ano link?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:21:39)
wait
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:22:08)
http://www.facebook.com/riyah.dizon?v=wall&story_fbid=138175202883574&ref=notif¬if_t=feed_comment
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:23:12)
kita mo
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:23:42)
uu. Sabi sayo Maya
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:23:52)
dati un
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:23:55)
before maging eagle, maya..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:23:56)
ngaun usapn natin
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:24:00)
o game..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:24:08)
tallest mountain
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:24:15)
in?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:24:53)
pinas
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:24:57)
Apo.
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:25:10)
ilang island meron tau
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:25:38)
7107
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:25:41)
tama/
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:25:42)
?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:25:47)
tangina..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:25:48)
naks
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:25:50)
hirapan naman..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:25:51)
hndi tulog
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:25:57)
yabang mo
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:26:01)
hahahaha! baliw, ikaw lang ang tulog!!!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:26:07)
HEKASI yan e..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:26:19)
isa yan sa pinakamataas kong grades nung elem..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:26:31)
una ang english kasi topnotcher ako doon hehehe..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:26:49)
ako din history heheheh
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:27:00)
o game..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:27:05)
ano pa meron ka jan?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:27:11)
hahaha. bawal maggoogle ha..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:27:26)
saglit halukayin ko lng stock knowledge ko
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:27:33)
naks, ang lalim!!
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:27:33)
pra bumlk utak ko nawawala eh
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:28:04)
sige.. game..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:28:10)
world history tayo..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:28:18)
wait isip ako
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:28:19)
bawal google. mandaya, pangit at may putok sa ilong
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:28:38)
ibblog ko itong usapan na ito. hehehe.
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:28:56)
mas maganda ang layout ng tumblr kesa sa blogspot
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:28:59)
anong country ang tintwg na smile country
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:29:05)
o pinaka masayang bansa
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:29:06)
ha?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:29:21)
leche, hindi naman histiory yan
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:29:26)
o eto ako naman babanat.
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:29:37)
pnong d history hjeehhehe
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:29:39)
anong taon lumubog ang Titanic?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:29:49)
patay na
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:29:55)
o ano?!!!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:29:59)
hahahahahaha! wala ka!!!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:30:13)
kadali..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:30:13)
tagal ko na pinanood un eh
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:30:23)
hindi, wag ka magbase sa movie..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:30:27)
hahahahahaha!!!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:30:32)
Di-1 Riyah-0
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:30:48)
wait ha isip ako
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:30:51)
weh..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:30:58)
mghintay ka
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:31:26)
wait...
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:31:30)
1913?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:31:33)
1912?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:31:37)
bzta anjan un
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:31:38)
hays..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:31:50)
heto sure na
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:31:52)
1912
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:32:03)
o ano
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:32:07)
1912..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:32:07)
ako nan
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:32:12)
ako muna!!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:32:15)
hahaha..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:32:25)
Di - 1, Riyah -0 pa din ha.. :D
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:32:26)
hehehehe
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:32:30)
Di-0
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:32:37)
Hoy, Di-1
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:32:39)
aba
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:32:42)
nasagot ko ah
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:32:42)
hindi ka nakasagot agad e..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:32:46)
dba sbi ko sure 1912
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:33:05)
bakit wla nmn uspan may time yan
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:33:15)
dapat pag tanong, sagot agad. e una mong sagot. mali.. 1912 2nd answer mo..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:33:18)
wala, wala..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:33:27)
basta, mali pa din sagot mo nung una.
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:33:27)
hahahahahah
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:33:28)
)
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:33:30)
nakakatawa tau
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:33:40)
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:33:45)
hahahah, wag ka tumawa.. Magtatanong pa ako.
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:33:52)
ano?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:34:25)
Ilan ang namatay ng lumubog ang titanic! hahahahahahaha!
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:34:51)
sobra nmn to
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:34:54)
history ba yan
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:35:42)
hahahahahahhaha! dali..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:35:46)
bzta alam ko si elizabeth lng nasave
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:36:00)
nsa 1k plus namaty
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:36:05)
sino namang elizabeth yan, e madaming elizabeth doon malay mo..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:36:11)
ah wala.. dpat sakto. hehehe
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:36:18)
mali
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:36:20)
hahahhaa
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:36:24)
ang tanga2 ko
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:36:26)
HAHAHAHA..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:36:28)
sbi ko sau bobo nko
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:36:32)
ikw ba nmn umupo lng
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:36:40)
hindi beng, joke lang.. ginudtime lang kita jan..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:36:42)
hehehehe.
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:36:48)
oi gawin nga natin to araw2 at ng bumalik memorya ko
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:36:49)
o game na ulit.. hHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:37:40)
sino hari ng himagsikan
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:37:52)
elementary na elementary ang mga tanong!!!
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:38:03)
hahahhahaha
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:38:09)
sbi ko sau balik tau sa dti
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:38:09)
Jan ako nagaral e.
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:38:21)
ABES
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:38:32)
sino o
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:38:56)
andres bonifacio
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:38:59)
adiks! :D
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:39:15)
hindi kya c aguinaldo hahahhaa joke
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:39:17)
dba un dw dpat
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:39:31)
hoy! hindi no.. never
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:39:53)
sino presidet nung world war
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:40:00)
ng pilipinas?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:40:25)
o ng japan?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:40:29)
hindi ng bansang ngdeclare ng world war
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:40:36)
japan?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:40:57)
russia ngdeclare no
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:41:22)
hahaha, beng naman. sisiw
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:41:29)
sino
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:41:40)
jozef stalin.. kasama yan sa 1st year history
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:42:18)
parang binabatuhan mo ako ng matindi ah. wag ganyan!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:42:20)
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:42:28)
hahahha
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:42:36)
tama ba?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:42:44)
sino ang matagl na naging presidnt ng iraq
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:43:11)
bakit middle eastr na?!!!
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:43:24)
dba world history tau
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:43:37)
pwera middle east. wala na sa mapa yun e.. hehehehe
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:43:54)
oi ang ingay ng pangaln non no
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:43:56)
sirit????
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:43:59)
si sadam.
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:44:00)
hehehe
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:44:08)
hahahah
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:44:10)
tama?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:44:13)
tga saan si anne frank
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:44:17)
oo
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:44:36)
anong relasyon ni anne frank sa history? Germany
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:44:42)
nabasa mo ba buk non?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:44:51)
hindi.. kilala ko sya..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:45:01)
wala nmn nagustuhan ko lng story nia
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:45:06)
ano un?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:45:39)
bzta nabuhay un nung time ni hitler ung labanan ng mga jews at russia ata
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:45:50)
wow, babasahin ko sya..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:45:58)
ganda xa beng
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:46:01)
isa na sya sa mga to read ko..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:46:07)
nkalagy dun pno ung pgtatago nla sa ilalim ng lupa
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:46:16)
kasama sya nagtago?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:46:19)
1styr college kopa ata nabsa
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:46:24)
ay hindi ko nabasa..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:46:27)
kya medyo loss memory na
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:46:29)
hmmm. interesting..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:46:36)
ok ah! wide reader ka din pala.
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:46:39)
tama ba spelling ko
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:46:46)
beng, ako naman tatanong
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:46:57)
oo nmn d lang tagalog pocketbuk binbsa ko haha
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:47:02)
Ano ang universal language ng universe?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:47:03)
ano
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:47:05)
hahahaha!
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:47:11)
ay mali..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:47:12)
english
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:47:18)
ano ang universal language
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:47:25)
english
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:48:22)
wait hindi kung ano ang language tinatanong mo?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:48:34)
o ung meaning ng universal language tlga?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:49:40)
ois
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:50:27)
ay Di - 2, Riyah-0
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:50:45)
meaning ba ng universal language tanong mo?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:50:56)
wag ka sasagot agad kasi pag di pa sure. hehehehehe.
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:51:04)
hahahhaa
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:51:07)
universal language ng lahat ng bagay sa mundo..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:51:17)
o heto anong tawg sa pinka unang letra
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:51:36)
sirit ka muna?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:52:39)
cge na nga
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:53:24)
ano???
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:53:27)
math. i know alam mo yan
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:53:46)
actually ang alm ko tlga is english
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:53:51)
pano naging math?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:54:19)
because it speaks for the universe.
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:54:22)
hindi mo alam?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:54:32)
nagbabasa ka ng Dan Brown ah!
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:55:29)
nkaligtaan ko cguro ung part na un hehehhe
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:55:35)
hndi ko tlga natandaan
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:55:45)
ano tanong Mo?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:55:47)
CR muna ako
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:55:58)
wait habng cr ka isip ako
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:57:35)
first letter u asked
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:58:00)
first letter kung tama ako: Viking
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:58:00)
ngbasa ka da vinc code dba?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:58:03)
uu..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:58:25)
hindi eh
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:58:35)
ano?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:58:41)
aloibata?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:58:44)
alibata?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:58:51)
heto..ano ung symbol na sinbi don bkit nila nsbi na na si mary magdalene ung nsa last supper
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:59:05)
ano muna sagot doon sa letter
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 17:59:16)
alibata
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:59:27)
ay beng naman.. hikndi mo kasi sinabi kung saang bansa..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:59:33)
marunong ako magsulat nyan..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:59:37)
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:59:39)
chalice..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 17:59:50)
tama?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:00:01)
hindi
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:00:10)
ano?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:00:30)
Di-2, Riyah-2
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:00:48)
hula kpa
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:00:55)
sa symbol?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:01:24)
oo
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:01:34)
hmmmm.. sa last supper..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:01:42)
oo
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:02:29)
ano???
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:03:01)
kasi alam ko, sa pagkakatanda ko, yung symbol na yun ay yung pagkakadugtong nya sa tagiliran ni Christ.. Parang V..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:03:09)
Yin yang.. ganon..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:03:22)
hindi
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:03:27)
what>
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:03:28)
?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:03:38)
sirit
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:04:19)
ung kulay ng suot nila ng damit...kapag pingdugtung mo M ang labas which means magdalene
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:04:31)
2-2 na tayo.. Awww.. Very close!!!
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:04:41)
hahahhaha
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:04:43)
lav it
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:04:55)
o game.. muntik na.. ako naman..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:05:02)
nare refresh utak ko hahaha
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:05:07)
naintindhn ko binsa ko haha
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:05:14)
weait lang, may isstaple lang ako
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:05:26)
oki
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:07:13)
o game.. ako naman magtatanong ng dawla ulit.
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:07:21)
ok
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:07:24)
bawal google ha..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:07:40)
ok
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:08:07)
who was the three headed dog guarded from Greek mythology?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:08:35)
nku greek mythology na boba ako jan wait isipin ko
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:08:35)
*who was the three headed dog from Greek mythology?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:08:40)
sige..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:08:49)
beng sirit ako jan
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:08:57)
Cerberus..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:09:02)
Isa pa akong question:
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:09:15)
grabe npaka hina ko jan
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:09:21)
wla kc kmi subject na gnyn dti
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:09:42)
wala naman din kami noon e..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:09:46)
teka isip ako:
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:10:36)
ang alm ko lng jan venus queen of beauty
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:10:48)
ares god of war
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:11:26)
zeus king of war
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:11:29)
yan lng
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:11:29)
hahah
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:11:35)
yeah.. hades, king of death
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:11:58)
ung sa water cno kc un
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:12:22)
epithius?
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:12:32)
si poseidon
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:12:42)
hahahaha
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:12:43)
mali
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:12:47)
sbi ko na napaka
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:13:08)
oi ulit tau buks na gan2 ha
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:13:49)
uu sige. nasa edsa shang ako non e.. online ako maghapon
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:14:00)
tapos na ba ung 2nd question ko?
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:14:03)
ano gagawin mo dun
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:14:13)
hindi pa wla pa
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:14:47)
katulad ng dait. workshop.. eot na game.. teka iisip pala ako..
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:14:49)
wait..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:15:02)
beng tulungan moko gawa ng email request ako leave sa sat
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:15:57)
suslat ka pa? form lang yan..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:16:09)
wla kmi nun
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:16:10)
cge na
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:16:28)
reason ko su2nduin ko kunyri pinsn ko sa airport tapos hatid ko abudhabi
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:16:37)
o sige..
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:16:44)
or bgyan moko ganda reason
Riyah Dizon: (July 28, 2010 18:16:50)
aside jan
Dian:(July 28, 2010 18:16:54)
o beng, una na muna ako.. utang ko 2nd question ko bukas.. 2-2 na ha..

12 WAYS TO MEND A BROKEN HEART

I personally think that this post is beautiful. Everything written in here are true. In order for us to move on gracefully, we have to do it for ourselves and we have to stop finding our happiness with the people who get along in our way. Misery loves company. I don't care, really. I experienced it already and I am really lucky to have a friend who supported me all the way. We walked along a few highways and streets talking non-sense. I still remember those fateful, yet encouraging times. I still hear her say: "you have to grieve for you to move on completely" God, she's right. She's a heaven sent. I feel bad to those people suffering from a terrible pain by keeping the relationship alive even when the person she used to share it with is half-dead.


"to fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful," especially if you are the one who wanted the relationship to last. But to stop loving isn't an option."
-Bess Myerson

"When those you love deeply reject you, leave you, or die, your heart will be broken. But that should not hold you back from loving deeply. The pain that comes from deep love makes your love ever more fruitful."
-Henri Nouwen

1. Go through it, not around it.

I realize the most difficult task for a person with a broken heart is to stand still and feel the crack. But that is exactly what she must do. Because no shortcut is without its share of obstructions. Here's a simple fact: You have to grieve in order to move on. During the 18 months of my severe depression, my therapist repeated almost every visit: "Go through it. Not around it." Because if I went around some of the issues that were tearing me apart inside, then I would bump into them somewhere down the line, just like being caught in the center of a traffic circle. By going through the intense pain, I eventually surfaced as a stronger person ready to tackle problems head on. Soon the pain lost its stronghold over me.

2. Stand on your own.

One of the most liberating thoughts I repeat to myself when I'm immersed in grief and sadness is this: I don't need anyone or anything to make me happy. That job is all my own, with a little help from God. When I'm experiencing the intense pangs of grief, it is so difficult to trust that I can be whole without that person in my life. But I have learned over and over again that I can. I really can. It is my job to fill the emptiness, and I can do it ... creatively, and with the help of my higher power.

3. Detach.

Attempting to fill the void yourself--without rushing to a new relationship or trying desperately to win your lover back--is essentially what detaching is all about.

4. List your strengths.

5. Allow some fantasizing.

Grief wouldn't be the natural process that it should be without some yearning for the person you just lost.

6. Help someone else.

When I'm in pain, the only guaranteed antidote to my suffering is to box up all of my feelings, sort them, and then try to find a use for them.

7. Laugh. And cry.

You think it's just a coincidence that you always feel better after a good cry? Nope, there are many physiological reasons that contribute to the healing power of tears. Some of them have been documented by biochemist William Frey who has spent 15 years as head of a research team studying tears. Among their findings is that emotional tears (as compared to tears of irritation, like when you cut an onion) contain toxic biochemical byproducts, so that weeping removes these toxic substances and relieves emotional stress. So go grab a box of Kleenex and cry your afternoon away.

8. Make a good and bad list.

You need to know which activities will make you feel good, and which ones will make you want to toilet paper your ex-lover's home (or apartment). You won't really know which activity belongs on which list until you start trying things.

9. Work it out.

Working out your grief quite literally--by running, swimming, walking, or kick-boxing--is going to give you immediate relief.

10. Create a new world.

This is especially important if your world has collided with his, meaning that mutual friends who have seen him in the last week feel the need to tell you about it. Create your own safe world--full of new friends who wouldn't recognize him in a crowd and don't know how to spell his name--where he is not allowed to drop by for a figurative or literal surprise visit. Take this opportunity to try something new--scuba diving lessons, an art class, a book club, a blog--so to program your mind and body to expect a fresh beginning ... without him.

11. Find hope.

"There is one emotion that is stronger than fear, and that is forgiveness." But forgiveness requires hope: believing that a better place exists, that the aching emptiness experienced in your every activity won't be with you forever, that one day you'll be excited to make coffee in the morning or go to a movie with friends. Hope is believing that the sadness can evaporate, that if you try like hell to move on with your life, your smile won't always be forced. Therefore in order to forgive and to move past fear, you need to find hope.

12. Love deeply. Again and again.

Once our hearts are bruised and burned from a relationship that ended, we have two options: we can close off pieces of our heart so that one day no one will be able to get inside. Or we can love again. Deeply, just as intensely as we did before.

The more you have loved and have allowed yourself to suffer because of your love, the more you will be able to let your heart grow wider and deeper. When your love is truly giving and receiving, those whom you love will not leave your heart even when they depart from you. The pain of rejection, absence, and death can become fruitful. Yes, as you love deeply the ground of your heart will be broken more and more, but you will rejoice in the abundance of the fruit it will bear.

-Henri Nouwen

MY OWN PLAYFUL WORLD

This is where I am spending a little part of my salary... Toys!!!

















I bought the Buzz Lighter keychain during a trip to SM on my Birthday. The Fire Mario was a gift from my sister, the Alien from Toy Story was a gift from Ken. I can't explain the feeling whenever I see a little dangling face from an animation movie icon at a store. I can't help but to look at it with utmost admiration! :) I am not a toy collector. I just love seeing them inside a drawer, on top of the shelves, in my bag, and in my closet. They are everywhere!

I recently found a store in Manila where you can buy the cheapest action figures in town! Compared to a toy store at a mall, it will save you atleast hundreds of pesos. Cheaper when you buy a dozen.
I checked out Clippers' price of this Fire Mario and it's 300 pesos cheaper!

I sooooo love this kinda stuffs!

















These are my personalities. I made the first one on the right, which is the cool and rugged. Wearing jeans and a sneaker, a shirt and a hoodie. The one in the middle is my avatar when I was in the mood of learning MJ's Smooth Criminal dance moves. Hahaha! The third one, (which is on the left) is my latest avatar, pertaining to finding the right things for me for the next few years. Exploring all the possibilities in the universe. I soooo hope to find it soon..

Weiz, I call this kind The Cracker Rocker Club. Hahaha! Out of the usual boredom, I first made one for my sister. She used it as an avatar on her facebook page. Soon, I made one for myself and a friend find it cute and I made one for her too. (The image looks pixelized, sorry about that.)


























This is what I do when we are with Ken. I guess he's used into the camera already. I shoot as if he doesn't care. He plays around the camera, make a fool out of himself and dance crazily. I love taking his pictures.

FRUSTRATIONS + DESIGN = GOING BACK TO SCHOOL

Ahaha, another day passed and I'm still not over with the idea of going back to school. I've been searching for an affordable and educationally competitive institution for the past months and yes, it's all a failure. Why? I say because I don't continue searching and I am still trying to kill the desire of learning on an institution cuz it will cost around a fortune. I know that this is not the right way to see things but hell, I am really fucking frustrated. But happy. :)

For some reasons, I am still happy. I don't know why. Or maybe, here are the things:
1. I work and my job does not really require an overwhelming stress
2. A salary that is really, really, really, really good! (Well, compared to the previous one)
3. My co-workers are really funny, professional and suppppperrrr mabait!

Oh well. There are always the "right job with the wrong people at the right time", wrong job with the right people at the right time" and "right job with the right people at the wrong time".

I GOT BORED. SO WHAT?

Just another "boring" day, I went scribbling and editing. This is not a normal task in the office, but this is where I park my brain for a little while.

I remember using this ever-reliable graphic application since I was a kid. I drew bird, stick-man, (whatever) I wrote my name in different colors. Very classic rainbow.. :) I even cursed my kid-sister using this application (Hey, I was a kid back then!) And now I realize, my unusual hobby made my writing a bit better than everyone else using this app. (Hahaha, ang yabang!)

And then, I saw this cute image of a girl wearing something I find very interesting.

I graphically transformed her into a zombie! Yikes! :D

From paint, I moved into more detailed and organized post processing studio. I wanna learn more about it.

SIMPLE LANG AKONG TAO. ITO ANG GUSTO KO.

Ano pa nga bang mas sasaya sa listahan ng mga simpleng bagay na kukurot sa puso ko? Naisip ko lang lahat ng ito habang binabaybay ko ang kalsada pauwi sa aming tahanan.

1. Gusto ko yung Banana Kyung lamog na binibili ko sa kalsada ng Rada.
2. Gusto ko ng ulan kasi malamig at kung sswertehin, babaha at walang pasok.
3. Gusto ko ng mahangin na palagid. Pero hindi naman yung tipong liliparin at kaluluwa at dignidad ko. :p
4. Gusto kong naglalaro sa Timezone lalo na kapag libre. Kung sswertehin din, may makakaiwan ng Midnight Maximum 3D tune up card na International Level na at mapapasakamay ko.
5. Gusto kong nananalo sa mga lalaki pag naglalaro ng racing game o kaya arcade basketball. Kapalit ng kulani sa kilikili.
6. Gusto ko yung nadadamay ako sa pagpapaypay ng katabi kong matanda sa jeep.
7. Gusto ko magstay sa loob ng 0 degree walk in freezer.
8. Gusto ko din magpalamig ng Taro Pie sa walk in freezer.
9. Gusto ko na tinatanong ako sa mga bagay bagay na may kaugnayan sa computer at applications nito kasi nagugoogle ko at nadadagdagan ang stock knowledge ko.
10. Gusto ko ang gadgets lalo na yung maraming pindutan para kunwari henyo ako.
11. Gusto kong kumakalikot ng mga folders sa PC ko at folders sa office networks. Magugulat na lang ako, sa loob ng accounting folders, may mga litrato ng mga kaopisina naming nakajersey ay madumi ang bibig dahil siguro sa pagkain ng manok sa tabi ng swimming pool.
12. Gusto kong tumatawa ng malakas.
13. Gusto kong naiinis sa pamangkin kong tatlong taon tapos mag-aaway kami. :p
14. Gusto ko na sinasaway kami ng pamangkin kong tatlong taon habang nakasakay sya sa push cart sa loob ng grocery.
15. Gusto ko yung humaharurot na sasakyan.
16. Gusto ko ang pinakaweird na ad design.
17. Gusto ko ang RNB, Trance, Alternative, Acoustic at Rock.
18. Gusto kong naghahanap ng music files sa 4shared.com
19. Gusto ko ang black.
20. Gusto kong nanonood ng boxing kasama ang tatay ko kasi pwede akong magmura ng hindi ako napapagalitan. Hahahahaha!
21. Gusto ko ng bike, motor at waveboard kahit makailang ulit na akong nababalatan sa dahilang pagkakabagsak ko habang nakasakay alin man sa tatlong nabanggit ko.
22. Gusto kong tignan ang langit ng bandang 6PM kasi parang bulak ang mga ulap na kulay orange.
23. Gusto ko magblog ng walang kwenta para less ang effort.
24. Gusto ko si Snoopy at si Patrick at si Garfield.
25. Gusto ko ang gaming magazines. At travel magazine katulad ng ROAM.
26. Gusto ko magdrawing, magdesign at gusto kong maging interior designer.
27. Gusto kong humawak ng walis.
28. Gusto kong laging may PBB.
29. Gusto ko ng jacket at sneakers.
30. Gusto kong kumuha ng litrato ng mga batang makukulit.
31. Gusto ko ng black ang white photography.
32. Gusto ko na rin ng lomography.
33. Gusto kong sumayaw na walang kokontra dahil fat ako. Hihihi.

FIFA WORLD CUP SOUTH AFRICA 2010 SHIRTS

A quick preview of the designs I made using the available icon for FIFA South Africa 2010's Soccer game.

AN EXTRA BAGGAGE DOES NOT HURT, RATHER IT'S A KILIG MOMENT.. HIHI!

Hahahaha! I rule my own cage! I am not to detail this kilig moment happened earlier! But sure it's a day to remember.